I'm watching Wimbledon right now, and it always reminds me of high school summers -- I'd watch Wimbledon in early/mid-summer, and usually the US Open coincided with tennis tryouts, so I'd come home from tryouts/practice and watch tennis. I would measure my summers by tennis. When my dad got home from work, we'd go to the tennis courts and play a few sets, and then I'd run the lines. Summer has always been intertwined with my racquet getting re-strung, buying a new grip cover, and popping open new cans of tennis balls. I still love tennis as much as I did, although I don't get to play nearly as much. But that feeling of being back on the court, thwacking a two-handed backhand.....losing myself in the flow of the game....the tennis court was somewhere I was confident, I was in my element. In the midst of confusion, it was a refuge. Tennis just clicks for me. I miss it a lot.
In the wake of Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett's passing, someone also worth mentioning is Dr.Jerri Nielsen Fitzgerald. She was the doctor who was in Antarctica and diagnosed and biopsied her own breast cancer. I read her book, Ice Bound, which tells her amazing story. She had chemo airlifted and sent to her, and her cancer went into remission, but returned 5 years later, and metastasized to her liver, bones, and brain. She was only 57, and died last week as well.
When I hear things like that, and think of everyone I know who has been diagnosed, it just reminds me why I am pursuing oncology. But if I get this job....I might have to put that to rest. I'd still be working in oncology....but not as a physician. It brings up a lot of tough choices and lots of emotion.
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Life does have a way of working out. Going to Texas Tech was not in my plan. It was my absolute last choice school but as it turns out it's the only one that let me in. So I moved to Lubbock and I can honestly say - I really like it here! So my advice is to go with the flow and be open. You never know when that option of last resort is going to turn out to be the best!
Do what feels right.....this is a chance of a lifetime....if you get this job....SK is a golden ticket to the world of oncology and you don't need Willie Wonka....MM
If life had worked out how I wanted I would have been an Army Officer. I sure as hell never ever wanted to be a nurse working with kids with cancer. I thinks life's kinda funny that way.
Maybe you have two possible dreams before you. Either way you get to try out for the match. In the midst of the confusion maybe try to figure which will more likely be more of a soul refuge for many future summer days.
For better and worse, be your dream
Just try not to set limits in advance by trying to force what your dreams must be
Never easy ... you just get to play ... one way or the other
Best wishes
Always
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