Speaking of PhD programs, I'm getting incredibly anxious. And I know it's stupid to be so anxious, because people have REAL problems, and here I am, worried about this. But I just feel like I've worked my ass off for this, and this is my dream - and if I miss this shot......well....I'm not sure how I will feel. I'm not sure if I can forgive myself if I don't get in. I don't think I've wanted anything as much as I want this. If I don't get into a program, I feel like everything I've done is a waste. And I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I do.
I need to do some cognitive reframing. Where's Aaron Beck when you need him?
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Hello there :) No actually I go to Fredonia State, but the class is amazing and the professor is one of the only ones in our area who teaches it so we're very lucky to have him :)
Good luck with everything!!
my perspective is if you don't get in this year, you can always work for a year and apply again. if it's really what you want to do, then it'll happen (whether it's this year or the next or the next)! I know that's not totally reassuring, because you'd then have to figure out what you're doing next year, but life tends to work out... :)
There- someone else said it...work for a year, and try another program the following year. Even during the darkest night, the dawn comes around and life is renewed. You will see your light when it comes to you. In the meantime, don't be so hard on yourself.
MM
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