Trey's 6th Birthday Letter

My sweet Trey,
Happy 6th Birthday, buddy. I marvel that it's been that long, because the years have flown by, not giving me enough time to let the time fully sink in so I can capture it. I look at you and see everything, all wrapped up in one body -- I see you learning to walk, talk, your laugh, pushing your stroller....and the boy you are growing up to be. I love your obsession with Dr.Seuss books, and how you will ask me to read you a story before bed. Our trips to B&N are things I treasure more than you can ever know.  Your thoughtfulness and sensitivity will make you a wonderful big brother, and your sister will have you as a role model. When I first held you six years ago, I had no idea the extent to which you would change me or my life -- I can't remember life without you, buddy -- and I was just learning what it was to love someone I'd just met, more than I loved anyone in the world. For no reason other than instinct. As you get older, I have this urge to protect you more and more, maybe because I am scared of what this world is becoming and want to shield you from hurt and harm. But I know I can't. I know you will get hurt at times in your life, and I already ache, thinking about that. But the thing is, you are resilient. Your heart is like a starfish -- it regenerates and heals itself. Your unguarded, hopeful love is perhaps one of the most beautiful things about you. Hold onto that as long as you can, even though this doesn't make much sense to you now. And know that there are so many of us around you who love and support you, T-man.
When you started kindergarten this year, your bravery amazed me. You went on a bus and went to a big school. I didn't do that at your age -- it was scary enough for me to do that in high school. But you did it, and when I visited your classroom in January, you were doing wonderfully. You are like your daddy in that way -- with some things, necessary things, you leap, and throw yourself into life. I admire that.
Your life is going to change when your little sister comes, buddy, but you're gonna be great. I know you'll be a huge help, and we'll still do the things we always do -- no babies allowed. :)  Being nervous or scared is normal, but trust me, you will be the best big brother ever. I know it.
Trey, six years ago I became your aunt, and have treasured that role ever since. You've changed me in ways I can't even describe, but I'm grateful. Grateful for all the lessons you've taught me without even knowing it. Grateful for the love you've brought into everyone's life. I can't believe it's been six years already. I love you, Trey, and am so, so happy to be your aunt.
Love,
Aunt JJ