First week done!

Well, the first week is over. My thursday class, Anti-Heroines, was great, too. I am super excited because the reading list is so kick-ass. Again, I can't believe I have to read these books. Although I'm rereading "Wuthering Heights" right now for the class and am slogging through, tempted to just get Clif Notes. Yes, apparently I still think like a high schooler. But seriously, the classes I have this semester feel different. I don't know if it's simply a function of being a second year, or what, but they feel more like how art school should be. I don't know if I said that in the previous post. The work is intense already, and I am feeling stressed because of thesis, publishing, jobs, etc. Have you ever wanted something that seemed unreachable, so much you could feel every cell in your body wanting it? That's me with writing. For so long I thought it wasn't "practical", so I abandoned it. But now I'm back. 

My nephew's first week (2 days) of kindergarten is done, too. I was so nervous for him. Maybe because every single morning of my kindergarten year, I would beg my mother to let me go to work with her, that I didn't want to go to school.....in my defense, I WAS ONLY FOUR. Gimme some slack. I remember so well pleading with her. But then, like, an hour after she was gone, I was fine. Every. Day.  But Trey? He took it like a little man and didn't even cry. I am so proud of him. I really hope he likes school and that he has friends and does well. He is so tender and sensitive and I hate to think of him dreading to go to school every day, for whatever reason. 

My tremors are getting more noticeable, and worse. Now I have a postural tremor in addition to the intention tremor, which means when I'm standing, my legs shake, just standing up. It gets even worse walking down steps. I'm terrified I'm going to face plant one of these days on Columbia's cement steps. I mean the shaking is noticeable when I'm wearing long pants, even. When I hold my iPhone, I can see it wobbling out of the corner of my eye. When I go to put on a necklace, I have to try repeatedly to clasp it because of the tremors. In class it's become embarassing, because it looks like I'm nervous or in withdrawl. To be honest, I just feel a general weakening. I don't like walking around anymore outside because I get tired so easily and my legs feel wobbly. Like I told my mom, I feel like Bambi. You know, when he tries to stand on his legs and keeps falling? The MRI was clear, I have a vitamin B12 deficiency, but the doctor doesn't know for sure if that's what's causing this. Basically, it feels like a loss of control of my body. I just watch my hands shake and it's ridiculous. 

Anyway......fall is almost here (though you'd never know it, with this heat and humidity). Pumpkin spice lattes are back, I'm eating pumpkin tortelloni, and I'm going to pick up apple cider. The farmers market will start selling the hot cider, too. yum.