white coat envy

So.....yesterday at the hospital, when we were in the cafeteria, I kept looking around at all the med students and residents and doctors, and I admit, I was jealous as hell. Jealous because I want to be one of them. I want it so bad I can taste it. And it must have showed on my face, because my mother asked me what was wrong, and I told her. She replied with, "We've been through this - by the time you'd be done your residency, you'd be in your 40s...." And she's right. She reminded me about the conversation Jonel and I had that solidified my choice to go into public health. But daily, I wish I had gone ahead and pursued medicine. I wish that I had never given up my interest in science and oncology 10 years ago. I applied to college pre-med -- who knows where I would be if I had continued on that path? But, things happen for a reason, and I am on this path now for many many reasons. Compared to psychology, this is much more true to who I am. And I guess I just have to realize that I will still be in oncology, just not how I maybe originally imagined.